Tis the season....

The holidays have pretty good to me. I've spent a lot of time with my family. I love spending time with all the little kids. Austin, Audrey, Aden, Jakob, and Julia are the best. I have maintained good spirits for the most part. But every now and again my mind has wandered and i just daydream. A little depressed about something. I've done a lot of soul searching lately. Sometimes it's hard to do the right thing. And I find myself really sad at different times. It's really inexplicable really. I don't know even where to begin. I am just really, really happy ...and really, really sad. It's a powerful mixture. "And I do anything to just feel better." I hope for the best though. I'm an optimist by nature. Call it a curse maybe. To everyone I know....Happy Holidays. My outlook on a lot of different things has changed. A couple people are primarily responsible for this. You know who you are. I hope someone can affect each and everyone of your lives in a such a positive way. Reach out and open your guard. Let people in. Show emotion. Live. Take risks. It can be really rewarding. Put a little love in your heart...and the world...will be a better place.